So, I know I haven't written for a while, and I need to catch up, but I was thinking about my betta today, and it made me very sad.
I finally got Luau the F8, and he makes me happy to see his smiling little face and wiggly little butt, but I find myself sad sometimes when I see him. Makes me miss Freddy even more, and I was hoping that puffers would fill that void. Luau did, to a certain extent, but I do miss having a betta around. Freddy had an enormous amount of personality, and really, if it wasn't for Freddy, I would have never found puffers in the first place. Someone on TPF posted up a picture he found of a dragon betta on aquabid (never knew about that place until I saw his post) and it was of a beautiful betta, black, blue, red and silver. I really would like to get another tank for a betta, but I am afraid that asking for another 10g aquarium, would be pushing the envelope with my BF. As much as I love my fish, I love him even more, so I will wait (impatiently, haha) until we have our own home. I did put the stuff on an Amazon wishlist, but it's for the future.
I was raised around fish and other pets. I was raised to love all of God's creatures, even the nasty, slimy creepy crawly ones, haha. People may wonder why I still lament the loss of my fish, and I wonder that myself sometimes, but really, I loved Freddy just as I would love my dogs. Losing Freddy, was like losing one of my pups, but on a slightly lesser scale. I was devastated when I realized that I had to euthanize Freddy, but I was able to move on and go on with my life. That wouldn't be so easy with Lady or Taz. It doesn't mean that I loved him any less, it just means that I cope with things different ways...I guess.
Every time I see Luau, I love him terribly, after almost losing him (will talk about this in a next post), he just makes me burst with happiness, and it makes me impatient for my GSP. But it also makes me sad. What prompted this post was how sad I got when looking at him about 20 minutes ago. I guess I am not over Freddy as much as I hoped I was. One day soon, I will get another betta and a tank, and this time, I will do it the right way, and hope that dropsy doesn't come and visit us again.
